Phunk update

Thank you all for your comments and well-wishes...and fair amount of psychoanalyzing...lol!I'm still not quite sure what I feel about the blog issue, I've quite enjoyed this time away with no pressure to blog and no need to worry about it (both pressure and worry are completely of my own making...) I need to think... Continue Reading →

I've lost my words and I'll be back when I've found then again.

A slightly twitter-like post

1. I feel blah and like crap and that's why I haven't posted. 2. I don't like pain, but I wish to god that I did. 3. I've been thinking, if direction is where you are going and where you have been, where are you then, when you've lost your direction and nothing else matters? 4. Why aren't... Continue Reading →

The reverse half-twist

"Haven't you figured it out yet? Your use is going to be so much more than what you desire." This statement of Master's has been buzzing around my head for the past couple of days. It presents a triad of paradoxes- my wants versus my needs versus my reality. He is slowly breaking me down.... Continue Reading →

Girls just wanna have fun

I called my mum today for Mother's Day and after the usually niceties of 'Happy Mother's Day, did you get my card?' she wanted to know about me:"So, what have you been up to?""Oh, we went to a play party last night.""A play party????""Yeah, you know, you go to a dungeon and people do stuff.""Stuff???What... Continue Reading →

To the Virgins, to Make Much of Time

Gather ye rose-buds while ye may,    Old Time is still a-flying; And this same flower that smiles today    Tomorrow will be dying. The glorious lamp of heaven, the sun,    The higher he’s a-getting, The sooner will his race be run,    And nearer he’s to setting. That age is best which is the first,    When youth... Continue Reading →

The Robinson Crusoe Syndrome

After my last post and the flurry of  "Me too!!" comments, it made me realise once again that there are so many times that we feel so bizarro and so alone because of our apparent 'bizarreness', but that actually there are a hell of a lot of people who feel the same way as we... Continue Reading →

The little slut that couldn’t

Master complained that I haven't done a post of 'substance' for a while. Lol...He likes to read about the nitty gritty workings of my immature little mind and flashes of thoughts that I don't explore aren't good 'reading matter'.So, I've been thinking about me-as I'm prone to do-rolling me around like dirt on the end... Continue Reading →

Defeat

You know what I hate? I really hate it when they 'break' you.You're there holding your quivering lip in check, scrunching your hands into little balls and trying to get through it without 'breaking'..."I'm not going to die" you repeat to yourself somewhere deep inside...Then something happens, a sting from the cane is just too... Continue Reading →

The perfect match

It's a hard thing to find someone who is in sync with you and I have to say that I'm a hard person to get in sync with. Ask Master, he'll tell you that I have more mood swings than a monkey on heat. I flit from 'use and abuse me' mode to 'leave me... Continue Reading →

Coming out

I've made a friend at uni and being the solitary, slightly aloof type that I am, that's a big thing! She's funny and we do silly girlie stuff like compare our myopia and take wee breaks together. She shares a lot about herself and I do a lot of listening. One day we sitting down having coffee... Continue Reading →

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