Married Man’s Fucktoy was asking a question over on her blog about what act you’ve performed that made you feel the most submissive. The usual submissive act subjects of being used as a toilet and public humiliation were offered up and I thought too that drinking piss and public insertion of butt plug were high up on my list. Then I had a bit more of a think about it and realised that even though those acts made me feel ‘used’, the acts that really made me feel submissive were the simple everyday ones like changing his sheets and cleaning his toilet.
Why do these seemingly simple acts make me feel submissive?
Because I don’t get anything out of them on any level. They don’t scratch my bondage itch, my humiliation and degradation itch or my wanton slut itch. They are just things that need to be done. They are what I would call ‘pure service’ acts that I do simple because I’m the slave and he’s my owner and obeying is what I do.
I don’t get a ‘good girl’ out of them. I don’t get pretty trophies to take photos of and post to my blog. I get nothing out of them except the ability to say, ‘Yes, I have’ when he asks, “Did you clean my bathroom bitch?”
If I was service-orientated, I’d most definitely get my service itch scratched by washing his clothes or cleaning up his messes or putting his stuff away, but unfortunately I don’t have a service itch and if I wasn’t his slave, I’d be telling him to do his own shit because, “I’m not your mother fucktard!” So the fact that I do these things regardless of how I feel about them and, generally speaking, without bitching and moaning incessantly about them is directly due to the fact that I’m wearing the shiny thing.
And weirdly enough, when I don’t bitch and moan about what I have to do, when I do them like it’s the most natural thing in the world, that’s when I feel really, really insanely submissive.
As MM’s Fucktoy says though, this question is totally subjective and each person’s answer will be totally different. What pushes my buttons won’t push another person’s buttons and whoever the mirror shows will depend on who is looking in it.