It’s just not doing it for me.
I try…but it gets me nowhere.
These past few weeks, I’ve been trying Experiment in Slavery #587 and to be honest, I still suck at being a slave and I still feel like it’s a whole heap of hooey.
No matter what I do, I’m just not that same submissively-inclined person I was before. I don’t even think I have that ability to get into slave head space anymore. I feel so far removed from it all that I find me trying to be a slave almost comical.
And then I was thinking about it (in the bath, not the bus this time) and I had another epiphany of monumental proportions.
We have needs and we seek ways to have our needs fulfilled.
Then the needs are gone.
If I’m hungry and need food, I eat something and the need is gone.
So by that logic, doesn’t it mean that it would be rather peculiar for me to have an eternal need for food even though I was getting sustenance?
I don’t think needs are self-perpetuating. I think they are meant to appear, be met and then disappear.
I had a need to be a slave, it was met and now it has disappeared.
C’est la vie?